10 Thngs You May Not Know About Me

1. I want to go back to school


2. I need a partime job


3. I miss my mother so very much!!


4. I love to read


5. I could eat watermelon every day


6. I am the 8th child


7. I do not like to receive gifts


8. I miss the good times I had with the old Mt. Pleasant youth


9. I have A.D.D.
10. I love pickles

Justin Turns 18

July is the Bday month for many of my family members. Let's see, well July is my birthday month as well. There is Me, Amy, Jeff, Lauren, Benny, & Frankie. forgive me if I left someone off. Oh yes, of course, July is also Justin's birthday. He turned 18 on the 24th.

Justin is very special to me. I have alot of empathy for Justin. His life has not been an easy one. Those who know him, know he has lost some very dear people in his life. He struggles daily with making the right decisions. He seems to not make good choices, which has gotten him into some trouble. If only people knew this kid has had it rough. He is such a kid at heart but he is in a mans body, and I mean a big man... LOL.....

He was such a good sport on his bday. He wore the stupid hat and tie that Candy and I picked up for him at the "Dollar Tree". Candy made him a "cookie cake" for his bday. We went by Fuji and got his favorite, and Candy, me and Erica headed to his house to celebrate his bday. I think he really enjoyed himself. We made him feel special. His mom had to work, and she has been out of work for several months and didn't really have the money to do anything for his birthday.

I pray for Justin daily, and I pray he will wake up one day and decide this is the day I turn my life around. I will never give up on him, and will hold him close to my heart and continue to love him no matter what. I made some pretty dumb choices myself when I was 18, I was just lucky that I never got into the things he did. It was in front of me but I had the strength to walk away from it.. Happy Birthday Justin!! I love you very much!!

Justin really enjoyed getting to spend his special day with his favorite cousin"Erica". They have a bond, and even though Erica is only a couple of years older than him, he really looks up to her.

It's Been a While

Wow!! I looked at my last post and all I can say is "Where has the time gone". To be completely honest I have not even felt like posting. I mean if i would have posted something you would have seen how sad, lonely, & somewhat depressed I was. I had no desire to post anything. It seems like I have been living in another body for sometime now. No, I didn't just wake up and see this. I have been knowing it, but really did not want to do anything about it. While I have been living in this closed world environment and trying to make people think I am okay because I can handle what God sends my way, I have been dying on the inside.

I mean I can grieve as long as I want to.. There is no time limit on how long it takes a person to get over the death of a loved one. But who was I trying to fool. I guess myself. I laid around all weekend and did not even bathe. What kind of person does that. I mean for three days I did not leave the house. I have friends who care about me and family, but I don't really want to be around any of them. Not because I feel sorry for myself because I don't.

But right up under my nose my youngest daughter who has been branded the "perfect child" has fallen head over hills with someone. She has a telephone growing out of her ear, and she has grown up on me in just a few months. She has broken the trust her father and I had for her and whom would have ever thought that she would "sneak out of the house" to see this little guy she has fallen for. You talking about a wake up call, that was it...

What am I to do now?? I keep thinking how can I get her to see this young guy is not worth it. Yes I am so disappointed, but I am also shocked. Where has my little girl gone??? How could this guy take the place of her mom & dad? I dare him... I know it is called growing up, but it was much easier for her to be a little girl.

I will figure out what to do and try to be the stern mother I was to my oldest daughter, but that is so hard to do when you have never had to discipline this child in probably 8-10 years. Her dad would love it if we could some how kill this little boy and throw him away... But, it was just a thought. I really don't think that is the answer. No I am sure it is not the answer.

Thought for the Day......... Seek God's guidance in everything...