This year was a little different. #1 Mama is still in the skilled nursing home for her rehab. By the grace of God she is getting stronger and stronger everyday. We did get to bring her home for the Thanksgiving feast. #2 It was our first holiday without Todd. It was different without him there, and Oh how I miss that kid.....
I told my sister- That I wondered when it would stop hurting and when would I stop missing him. Then I told her in a way I did not want it to stop hurting, because as the pain eases I don't think about him as much. I don't want that to happen. I have erased the bad memories of him and now only think of the sweet precious talks that he and I had. Todd and I had lots of talks, we have shed alot of tears together. He was very tender-hearted and could cry over someone else being hurt. The meth robbed him of life, but he still had a compasionate heart. I would love to have Todd back if he could have been who he used to be.. But the drug had taken over his life. He was miserable. He would cry wanting to be able to get off the drug, but this drug is so powerful. Todd will always have a special place in my heart. No one will ever fill that spot...
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving spread!!! We ate very well. Normally we eat and then immediately do the dishes, but not this time. We sat around and visted with mom and with each other. We were laughing and carrying on with each other. We ate dessert later and then we did the dishes, which takes a while to do. Mom was very tired and was ready to go to bed... We took her back to the nursing home.
There was a some sleeping going on with the in-laws. Some were just playing possum to get out of doing the dishes.
I told my sister- That I wondered when it would stop hurting and when would I stop missing him. Then I told her in a way I did not want it to stop hurting, because as the pain eases I don't think about him as much. I don't want that to happen. I have erased the bad memories of him and now only think of the sweet precious talks that he and I had. Todd and I had lots of talks, we have shed alot of tears together. He was very tender-hearted and could cry over someone else being hurt. The meth robbed him of life, but he still had a compasionate heart. I would love to have Todd back if he could have been who he used to be.. But the drug had taken over his life. He was miserable. He would cry wanting to be able to get off the drug, but this drug is so powerful. Todd will always have a special place in my heart. No one will ever fill that spot...
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving spread!!! We ate very well. Normally we eat and then immediately do the dishes, but not this time. We sat around and visted with mom and with each other. We were laughing and carrying on with each other. We ate dessert later and then we did the dishes, which takes a while to do. Mom was very tired and was ready to go to bed... We took her back to the nursing home.
There was a some sleeping going on with the in-laws. Some were just playing possum to get out of doing the dishes.
It is a tradition for the men folk to sleep while the women folk do the dishes. Something don't seem fair about this picture. But we laughed and we had a great day of fellowship with each other.
I am praying mama will be home for good at Christmas. God has brought her so far. She was so depressed and I feel she didn't want to live. I am so thankful God has delivered her from the depression. She is doing so well with her physical therapy. The fight is back!! I cherish my mom and I hope she is around for a long time. But when God calls her home- I know she will be reunited with My Dad, Brenda, Bestsy and Todd. I know she looks forward to that homecoming
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